All the meds in the world can't help you keep your feelings completely at bay. I'm still surprised by some of the strong emotions I feel on a daily basis, especially the ones that my meds help combat.
An anxiety attack yesterday, brought on by a group activity. Feelings of horror, then sadness and tears after someone said something about soldiers dying. The random, fleeting thoughts of cutting, or other self injurious behavior that creep into your mind when you're having a really good day. The feelings of inadequacy when someone passes judgement based on a tiny glimpse into your life.
If there was a magic pill I could take so all of this would go away, I would take it, but there isn't. I work hard, every day, to work with the medications to deal with these feelings and strong emotions. I aid my medications by learning and utilizing coping skills, by talking to people I trust, by not letting the evil thoughts get the best of me, by writing out my thoughts.
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