What lies inside

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Today I had therapy.  Wendesdays are tough.  This week we did a guided meditation.  It focused on self esteem.  For however long, probably about half of my session, I was able to lose myself.  It was relaxing, but hard to believe.  Part of my therapy is working on my self esteem.  That part of me is so broken.  The biggest goal of both my individual and group therapy is to change the way I view myself.

The quote by Emerson rings so true to me.  What is in the past I can't change.  What is in the future will depend on what I do with what is inside me.  I can go forward loving myself, and taking control of my choices (hell, I'll even take liking myself), or I can go forward in the way I've been living my life.  Going forward with a positive self image will make for a better future for me, for my kids, for any future partner.

This week, I will focus on positive meditation.  I will practice this tecnique no fewer than 3 times this week.